For me meditation has been an unfolding, a discovering, and a surrendering experience. The first few times I meditated I was all over the place. My mind was jumping from one thing to another and, in no way, was it peaceful. Over a few years I would try it off and on and really felt that other people could meditate, feel peace and “do it right,” and I couldn’t. I judged what I was doing and thought if I wasn’t doing it perfectly, it was not right. I would start and stop a lot, however, I did not give up.
“When you make genuine contact with your inner Spirit, there is inner joy, and inner peace, that takes over.”
-Reverend Michael Beckwith
The shift happened for me when I listening to Visioning CD’s from Reverend Michael Beckwith in which he spoke in-depth about mediation. He gave practical ways to meditate and he talked about how it’s a BLISSIPLINE, not discipline, BLISSIPLINE. It takes discipline to add to our bliss. It’s like how we brush our teeth even when we don’t want to, or how we shower even when we don’t want to. The benefits are life changing, and when we don’t want to it’s a dis-ease. I was making excuses, saying I can’t, finding distractions in the morning to keep me from it, a dis-ease. It made me mad when I heard him say dis-ease and that propelled me to change the way I looked at it. I had to stay with it even if it wasn’t comfortable or perfect.
“Just as you wouldn’t leave the house without taking a shower you shouldn’t start the day without at least 10 minutes of sacred practice, prayer, meditation, inspirational reading.”
– Marianne Williamson
I carved out a time every morning to start. It was 15 minutes, and I would time it. It was not easy, for at times it was a very long 15 minutes, and other times I would feel some peace. I created a space in my home that was comfortable, quiet, and peaceful. As I stayed with it I expanded the time to 20 minutes, then 25, then 30, and worked my way up to 45 minutes to an hour. It took awhile but after some time I could feel the shift. It was not the struggle that I experienced in the beginning. I started to hear that inner voice, ever so soft, yet deep and powerful.
“Meditation can help us embrace our worries, our fear, our anger; and that is very healing. We let our own natural capacity of healing do the work.”
-Thich Nhat Hanh
“Meditation is offering your genuine presence to yourself in every moment.”
-Thich Nhat Hanh
After years of meditation it’s still an unfolding experience- some days amazing, some days tears, and some days I feel like I’m all over the place. What I know today is that it is all good. No meditation is a bad meditation. Whenever we take time for our innerness, it is a gift we give to ourselves and something to be grateful for. What has been most life-changing is when I realized that my inner voice has become louder than all the mind chatter. It brings tears to my eyes as my heart overflows. After all these years searching on the outside, my answers were on the inside.
“Meditation is to dive all the way within, beyond thought, to the source of thought and pure consciousness. It enlarges the container, every time you transcend. When you come out, you come out refreshed, filled with energy and enthusiasm for life.”
“Many people are alive but don’t touch the miracle of being alive.”
-Thich Nhat Hanh